Cave Series 5: Echoing walls…for #GuruPurnima on July 19th

It’s getting hot and stuffy in this cave. I can’t see anything. It’s all dark. I know there’s a sun out there somewhere, but I can’t see its light. I can see a moon in my mind’s eye, but there’s no reflection on the walls from that either. It’s July 19th and I know many people are celebrating #GuruPurnima. I didn’t know what that meant a year ago. But I’ve heard it echoing off the walls this year. A year ago I made my decisions, I set up a plan, I sat down and waited, I adapted and modified exercises, I remained patient, I took up new practises, I changed old ones, I added to them and made them more difficult. I recently followed a reasonable whim and started additional work on the body. I am not young, but I stretch and strain with young people 3 mornings a week at 7am. I always start the day with a ritual, and then I have at least 3 more hours of rituals to do throughout the day. I don’t walk without my own chant. I don’t breathe without, mostly, realising it's a miracle. But I am all alone in this cave. There’s nowhere to go, nothing to do. Everything is just fine inside and outside. I am happy, I know joy. It comes from deep down inside. What if I am alone in this cave and can see nothing? Not to worry, there are no walls on Earth or on the Moon than can keep me from finding That, from finding It, from being what I am meant to Be, and maybe already Am, even if "I" don’t know it yet…